Apparently people are having some faith in me!
Yesterday U sent me an sms asking if I could do the thursday and friday spinning-class in Mariestad. So I keep the habit going. I accepted, ofcourse its awesome! And now today A sent me an sms and asked me if I could take his 17.30-class tonight in Skövde. And I accepted that aswell!
So I’m gonna have 3 spinning-classes this week! How awesome is that? That is awesome 😉
First of all I overslept for a thing at work (in the dream). And I went there to tell them that I was sorry and that it would never happen again. Then for some reason I was at a party which resided in the streets of some town. And the first thing I saw was this huge pallet of beer. And it was really messy! So I had to tidy it up, obviously! So I cleaned that up (placing each beer in its right place and throwing away empty cartons).
When that was done I saw a few friends who thought that “hey look at these mini-go-carts we found!” And left them there and walked away. I quickly mounted one of the mini-go-carts, they were so small that I had to cross my legs in order to fit in the seat. Its very hard to explain, they were small lets leave it at that. So I drove around a bit and spoke with my friends. Ultimatly I ended up in a “mini-go-cart” ARENA where me and 2 friends battled three 9 year olds for the grand prize.
We won!
And there the dream ends… I have no idea what it means but now I need to go to the buss! TATA =)
It’s been a busy day today! And I like when I have stuff to do!
First I woke up and did nothing. When the clock was about 11 I went out to mow the lawn! So I did that for about 45 minutes and it looked really nice. And I love the smell of freshly cut grass! But I wasn’t done! When the grass was cut I started to look for our trimmer. I found it and plugged it in and went bananas in the garden. Cut all the places where I couldnt reach with the lawnmower. It turned out to look really nice. Like someone actually cared about the grass (well its mostly moss but hey, its green!).
When that was done it was time for food and a quick shower. The time really flew when I did that garden work so I had about 20min to get ready for the buss. I got on the buss and went to work. Today I worked from 14.00 – 21.20. So I actually got to close the store for the first time! It was fun and exciting! It all went well (I hope). And if it didn’t I’ll probably read about it in the paper tomorrow :D. “Employee forgot to lock the door, store robbed of everything” Or if it was Aftonbladet it would be like “LÅSSHOCK i MARIESTAD. ANSTÄLLD HETSLÅSTE AFFÄR, GLÖMDE DÖDSDÖRREN, AFFÄR LÄNSAD OCH 5 DÖDA”.
AAaaaanyway, i’m tired and going to bed =)
I’m gonna repost my old short stories here. So if you were thinking “what the heck! Didn’t he post these already in the other blog?!!1?” you are absolutley right. But as I said, I want them here aswell! =)
I must link this since its awesome and worth a thought: http://svtplay.se/t/111146/the_90_s
It’s in swedish though 🙁
There are good and bad things in the world. And there are degrees of it. Such as peace is good, but so is the smell of freshly cut grass. But some might say that peace in the world is a better “good” then the smell of freshly cut grass. Same thing with bad things. War is a bad thing, most would agree to that anyway. But to step on a nail is also bad, but mostly for your foot. In a large perspective Peace and War are two of the polarities of that scale and in one way the most important. But I really do not know if that truly is the case. I feel that all scales of good and bad are equal and very individual. And actually something we should rejoice rather then despise.
I realize that the comparison aint that fair if you think about that peace and war is pretty abstract things whilst cut grass and nails in your foot is direct stuff that pokes your awareness when it happens. Ofcourse war does that aswell, but then you would have to be near war to really see it. And since I am far away from it I really can’t relate. And in a way I can’t relate to what the word peace is all about either since I havn’t experienced war.
So due to lack of “real” problems we create bad things in our minds and blow them up in proportion to the very degree that we can’t live a normal life and need to go to therapy. We have too much time left on our hands to think about what we lack in life that we forget what we have. With this way of thinking we will only get into more and more problems and suffocate ourselves to death. The more one reach for freedom the tighter the chains become. You will never be satisfied with your life. Well you might be a short period of time. But when that time ends you will strive for more. The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. The fact that it is an optical illusion and that you know it is just that won’t matter. You will go for it anyway.
I have no idea where I’m going with this.
I think my point somewhere is that we need to be less selfish and that we must start to care about the “greater good” rather then “what is good for me” to make life better. And I’m not saying that you never should do anything selfish. Ofcourse you should, but to deserve some time to be selfish you should give others joy and not sorrow.
There are people who gives and people who takes. And to deserve to take you must give. You can’t expect people to just give and never get anything in return. And that is the way of a selfish society. You take what you want and leave when you have what you want.
Damn, I sound bitter. But I’m not actually! =) <– LOOK I SMILED! THIS MEANS I’M HAPPY!
But I will give you a tip! Stay away from takers. Cause they will just bring you down. They will poison your mind with their words and when they are done you will be a broken shell of a person. And that is bad, mmkay? And I urge you to make the day better for someone. Give them a kind comment or anything that will make the day better for them and you will feel good aswell. Start spreading love, not hate!
De personer som ser denna scen utifrån kan lätt misstolka den. Här sitter då alltså Anders, ja Anders ja, titta och le mot kameran Anders. Anders här ja, sa jag föresten att han hette Anders? Anyway, han sitter här vid bordet, Anders alltså, och äter sin frukost med sin sambo Karin. Ja där har vi dig ja Karin, le mot kameran du också, bra gjort Karin. Han sitter alltså här och äter sin frukost, läser sin tidning, tuggar sitt bröd. Allt ser harmoniskt ut på ytan. Samma sak gäller Karin här, hon dricker sin juice, färskpressad såklart, bläddrar förstrött i den andra tidningen. Ja, de har två prenumerationer av samma tidning så de får var sin, utmärkt sätt att undvika dedär små irritationsmomenten på morgonen, kan varmt rekommenderas. Som sagt, det ser fridfullt ut, och det är så det ska se ut, men om man ser lite djupare kommer man fram till att Anders, denna helyllekille, ja han, han är en psykotisk mördare, tänk så tokigt. Och Karin, ja hon brukar putta omkull barn och pensionärer när ingen ser henne göra det, sedan skratta gott åt det och gå vidare. Hon brukar även släppa av riktigt otäcka fisar när hon sitter på tunnelbanan, precis innan hon ska gå av, sedan titta argt på personen bredvid henne så alla tror att det är han som släppt väder. Riktig sadist, usch.
Mmm, den ljuva doften av kaffe, älskar detta, sitta vid köksbordet och läppja lite lätt på härligt nymalet och nykokt kaffe, inget jävla ICA kaffe som de vanliga små nollorna där ute dricker. Nej det här kaffet är verkligen unikt, kaffet är verkligen värt varenda krona, kaffet är… magiskt. Rakt från dedär små blatteplockarna i Guatemala, mmm, Kaffe! Nej men se goddag på dig herr ostfralla, har du haft en trevlig morgon? Haha, som om jag bryr mig, DÖ SKARU GÖRA DITT JÄVLA OSTAS! SKA FAN SVÄLJA DIG HEL DIN LILLA JÄVLA NOLLA, DU FÖRTJÄNAR INTE ATT FÖRTÄRAS AV MIG, KÄNN DIG HEDRAD. Oj, ska nog kanske bläddra lite i tidningen också, så Karin i alla fall tror att jag läser den. Nej men oj, det var inte dåligt, idag var man med i tidningen också! ”Två uteliggare hittades morgonen tills idag mördade vid järnvägsstationen, dådet var mycket rått och hänsynslöst utfört då båda kropparna saknar både ögon, näsa, öron och läppar…”, ”Hörde du Karin? Läs på sidan 5, jag är med där, eller ja, mina handlingar är med!”.
Ja ojoj, där ser ni, där står inte allt rätt till inte, Anders är ganska, hmm, egen av sig kanske man kan säga. Ögon*, näsa*, öron* och läppar* förresten, riktiga delikatesser, passar mycket bra med vitlök. Ett tips är annars att skiva öronen i tunna tunna bitar för att blanda ut med salladen, salladen får en lite mer salt och knaprig smak av det. Näsan går bäst ihop med osten i en fondygryta och ögonen skall serveras istället för oliver i en härlig dry martini!
Fruktkött, mmm, fruktkött, mer fruktkött. Det är så härligt att sila juicen mellan tänderna så allt fruktkött FRUKTKÖTT samlas längst hela tandraden, mmm, sedan sveper jag med tungan över tänderna och samlar ihop allt, allt fruktkött och tuggar i mig det. Jag önskar jag bara kunde få äta fruktkött. Kanske skulle börja äta apelsinerna istället för att pressa ner dem, har hört att apelsiner består av fruktkött, undra vart jag hörde det? Jaja, får se om jag orkar, dricka är ju också gott. Då ska vi se, vad ska vi göra idag då, bäst att planera lite. Men får inte glömma att bläddra i tidningen så Anders tror att jag läser den. Idag ja:
08:17: Kasta en näve grus på ankorna i dammen på väg till jobbet.
08:34: Välta kaffekoppen för receptionisten på kontoret.
10:51: Ringa och stöna i Chefens telefon.
12:00: Äta Lunch.
15:00: Komma tillbaka från lunchen.
15:02: Välta kafffekoppen för receptionisten igen, den jävla häxan.
16:00: Gå hem.
Ja men det var ju inte så farligt. Lagom dag, mm, fruktkött.
Anders gillar öron, näsor, ögon och läppar, Karin gillar fruktkött, visst är de söta tillsammans? Jag glömde ju nämna läpparna förut föresten, de bör marineras samt grillas över öppen eld och serveras med hasselbackspotatis.
It was not that Eugene was afraid or anything, not at all, he actually loved danger and to put himself up to impossible tasks that no one had ever done before. But this was madness wasn’t it? The crowd cheered him on, their voices echoing through the city, bouncing from window to wall, from car to bus. Odd things can happen when you are under the pressure from an entire group. Well odd things happen when stupid people get together and set out to do something. This is stupid.
“Come on, give me a break” shouted Eugene out to the mass standing below him. “Do I really have to do this, why me? come on!” he continued.
“EUGENE, EUGENE, EUGENE, EUGENE” the gathering of stupid people had in just a couple of minutes gone from five, to twenty, to one hundred to thousands. “Apparently they travel in packs” Eugene thought to himself in all the commotion.
It wasn’t fair. Not fair at all. He was minding his own business, taking a stroll on the rooftop just to get some fresh air, trying to get away from the smog on the streets below. Stepped on to the ledge and someone from below him started screaming and jeering. “JUMPER, WE HAVE A JUMPER!”. People in groups can do odd things to your mind, or rather, stupid people in groups can do odd things to your perfectly healthy mind.
Eugene stretched out his arms, flapping them around a bit, jumping up and down while doing some sort of bird noise. The crowd went ballistic, started to cheer him on even more. “It’s the oddest thing, why would they want me to jump? They don’t even know me!” Eugene said to himself. “They don’t even know me, and still they want me dead”.
“Do not fret oh little one! Thou shalt not jumpeth!”, a voice said
“Who are you, and how do you know that I SHALT NOT JUMPETH!”, Eugene replied
“It’s rather simple to be honest, you are not as stupid as these people cheering you on are”, the voice continued
“How do you know? Maybe I want to jump, are you calling me a coward?”, Eugene whispered.
“Well, that’s the thing, if you jump you are a coward. If you stay up here you are the brave one. But you do what you have to do, see if I care”, continued the voice
“What do you mean?”, Eugene said
“To be cheered on by thousands of people and decide not to do what they want and thus suffer their rage and disappointment is much more courageous, much, much more courageous than to do as they say. Especially when they want you to kill yourself.”, the voice calmly continued.
“Ah”, Eugene was thinking, “And who are you”.
“Are you sure you want to know?” echoed the voice.
“Yes, yes I am sure”, said Eugene
“I am, Death, I’ve been at your side for quite some time now”, death said.
“That’s from the seventh seal right?”, Eugene replied
“Well, yes, but what does it matter, I am death anyway and hey, it’s a good movie”, death said and continued in a whisper “sometimes I don’t feel like being original”.
“Hey, wait a minute. If you are death, why would you want me to live?”, Eugene turned around, facing death he continued, “Or are you pulling my leg? As I understand it you know how I’m going to die. And if you want me to stay up here, that might lead to my death. And if that is the case, my only way of survival is to jump?”, Eugene said.
The crowd stopped the cheering the moment Eugene stepped off the ledge to face death. They started to spread out again, to their jobs, families and duties. Forgetting all about Eugene and the fact that they tried to kill him, taking an innocent mans life for some entertainment.
Eugene looked around. Nobody was there. He was standing alone on a rooftop, looking at the sky. What a wonderful day this could be! He took one step and plummeted to the ground. No cheering. No stupid people. Only one stupid man, falling to the ground.
That was the feeling I got the first time I was supposed to be the leader of a spinning class at the gym. I chose to fight and got through it with my head held high. But I was nervous as a… well as something nervous! And now, almost a month later, I got the chanse again at last to be the leader again! And it was GRAND!
I was supposed to have had like 3 classes by the time I got around to have my second one. First one I had to cancel due to me working. Second one got cancled due to something I do not know. And the third one got canceld due to injuries and people being sick. But now everything just clicked and it finally happened 🙂
So the second time I had a spinning class things went way smoother. I wasnt as nervous as the first time and I actually enjoyed it very much! And I hope that the people who showed up also had a good time! It was me, 1 guy and 12 girls! And when it was done U and J, the two other leaders came up to me and said that it was like night and day if you compared it to my first class! And that they thought it was great! That boosted my confidence! =)
So now I’m looking forward to the next time I’ll get to have a class! Not sure when that is though 🙂
Now its time for bed!
I’m on my way out of the door to hit the gym for the first time this week since monday. Damn I have really been slacking this week, that bothers me! But that is just a minor glitch in my perfect system! ;).
Going to attend the 09.30 spinning-class this morning in Mariestad and not Skövde as I am used to. I will then jump on the buss 11.40 to go home, eat something and then jump on another buss at 13.05 to go to work! It will be a buss-day today! 🙂